Lucas lost yet another tooth, and he has another one that isn't too far behind. Shortly after he pulled his tooth out he said, "What if I was having a bad dream and I opened my eyes and then I saw you with your hand under my pillow?!"
"What do you mean?" I asked, trying to play innocent and hoping he didn't really mean what I thought he meant.
"When I put the tooth under my pillow tonight, what if I'm having a bad dream so I open my eyes and then see YOUR hand under my pillow?"
"But why would you even think that, why would you think it would be my hand under your pillow?"
"Because maybe YOU are collecting teeth!"
"Me!? Do you THINK I am?"
"I don't know. Sometimes I think you and dad are the Tooth Fairy and Santa Claus."
Oh no, I thought. Here it comes. Does he not believe anymore?
"Why do you think we're the Tooth Fairy and Santa Claus?"
"I don't know. Sometimes I just do. Sometimes I think it's YOU writing "Santa" on the presents. How did the Tooth Fairy have time to buy me that book?" (He lost a tooth the night before his 7th birthday and the Tooth Fairy left him a birthday book.)
"What would you do if it was us?"
Shrug of shoulders followed by "I don't know."
"How would it make you feel if you found out we were the Tooth Fairy and Santa?"
Shrug of shoulders again. "I don't know. I guess I would ask you why didn't you tell me Santa isn't real? I have a plan of something to do to find out if Santa is real."
"What is your plan?"
"I'm not going to tell you! I want to see if he's real by my plan."
It seems as if the last of those magical childhood years are quickly fading. Why do we parents do this to ourselves? Put ourselves in this position of building up these fake personas only to have our children realize we've LIED to them all those years?! Oh what a tangled web we weave when we deceive and all that, right?
Tonight he's got a tooth under his pillow and hopefully I can sneak it out while leaving a dollar in it's place - all without him waking up from a bad dream and catching me.
Maybe we can have one more magical night of believing.